Tuesday, October 02, 2007

The Roller Coaster

In the middle of some mesmerizing moments, you feel blissful and just don’t want to get out of that mode. Living one moment to the full, the experience just makes you want to stick to that moment forever. But then, time, as they say keeps moving. And the show, must go on. So, well, you live in a detached involvement, not attaching an expectation for the next moment while you’re living this one. No thinking about the future lest it might take away something from the beautiful present. But it is always possible to live in this royal abandon of the future? Humans are inherently emotional people, and with an essential capability to ‘feel’, we feel in all sort of ways, be it positive to the extreme or being negative on the other extreme. But then, perhaps this roller coaster of highs and lows is what makes life meaningful. This is what makes the ride worthwhile.

I mean, yeah, for some times, I don’t mind riding a usual train, whizzing by through life, looking at the green fields and the dry lands, constantly moving at the same pace, unaffected. But for a person like me, it would get boring rather soon. Haven’t had enough of roller coasters yet I guess. But then, you take a train to somewhere, not a roller coaster. You can’t possibly survive being on one of them for a long time. We necessarily need stability.

Shall decide about my need to stability when it becomes apparent and starts pinching me, or when the heart sinks too much on the roller coaster, and refuses to take any more of those highs and lows.


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